Sunday, March 14, 2004
So, I've been thinking about the past a lot recently, mainly because around this time of year the date catches up to me and I realize a whole 'nother year has slipped through my fingers. I had that realization in a most jolting and disturbing way today, i.e. on the 11th when I asked, "Is this March?" I honestly had no idea, and that scares me. But the scarrier part is that my birthday is a Tuesday this year, which bites, but that we have school instead of spring break. And if there's anything I don't want to do, it's spend my birthday the same way I've spent my other school days. That way being with that horrible feeling in my stomach and no appetite. I hate force feeding myself. It's unplesant. But I doubt it's going to go away until I do something about the source of my problem, and I don't know if I can do that. It's like an obssession, and I don't want that. I read everything over and over again, as if somehow it would help me, but it doesn't. And whenever I get outdone, it's all I can do not to physically cry. If only... No, I'm not going into "if only"s. I'm trying my best to get uninvolved, most noticably by throwing everything into what was previously the slightest of crushes on Julian. But it doesn't help.
At times like this, I'm reminded of Mulan. "No matter how the wind howls, the mountain cannot bow to it." Well, I refuse to bow to some dinky wind. I will be the rock!
janus9 05: what's rock-solid one day may not be the next.
janus9 05: love isn't.
janus9 05: no matter what happens, we're going to love them.
janus9 05: and that makes us the rock.
janus9 05: and not whatever's getting swept away.
janus9 05: so that when they have nothing else
janus9 05: they have us. the rock. we, who have always been there.
janus9 05: with our love.
Thank you Andy.
Now, I will NOT be sad on my birthday, or there will be killings. I will NOT judge my entire day on who does/does not say "happy birthday." I WILL remember my own birthday this year. AND! I will NOT stick my hand in a blender. Carry on.
Saturday, March 13, 2004
No One Else On Earth
Wynonna
I’ve been a rock and I’ve got my fences
I never let them down
When it comes to love, I keep my senses
I don’t get kicked around
I shivered once you broke into my soul
The damage is done now I'm out of control
How did you get to me?
No one else on earth could ever hurt me
Break my heart the way you do
No one else on earth was ever worth it
No one can love me like
No one can love me like you
You can make me want you any time you want to
You’re burnin’ me alive
I can’t deny you even when I catch you
Weavin’ a weak alibi
‘Cause when the night falls you make me forget
Your love is killing me and it ain’t over yet
How did you get to me?
No one else on earth could ever hurt me
Break my heart the way you do
No one else on earth was ever worth it
No one can love me like
No one can love me like you
I shivered once you broke into my soul
The damage is done now I'm out of control
How did you get to me?
No one else on earth could ever hurt me
Break my heart the way you do
No one else on earth was ever worth it
No one can love me like
No one can love me like you
No one else on earth could ever hurt me
Break my heart the way you do
No one else on earth was ever worth it
No one can love me like
No one can love me like you
Thursday, March 11, 2004
Someday Out of the Blue
Elton John
Someday out of the blue
In a crowded street or a deserted square
I´ll turn and I´ll see you
As if our love were new
Someday we can start again someday soon
Here comes the night
Here come the memories
Lost in your arms
Down in the foreign fields
Not so long ago
Seems like eternity
Love sweet afternoons
Still capture me
Someday out of the blue
In a crowded street or a deserted square
I´ll turn and I´ll see you
As if our love were new
Someday we can start again someday soon
I still believe
I still put faith in us
We had it all
And watched it slip away
Where are we now
Not where we want to be
Those hot afternoons
Still follow me
Someday out of the blue
Maybe years from now or tomorrow night
I´ll turn and I´ll see you
AS if we always knew
Someday we would live again someday soon
I still believe
I still put faith in us
Here comes the night
Here come the memories
Lost in your arms
Down in the foreign fields
Not so long ago
Seems like eternity
Love sweet afternoons
Still capture me
Someday out of the blue
Maybe years from now or tomorrow night
I´ll turn and I´ll see you
AS if we always knew
Someday we would live again someday soon
Someday out of the blue
In a crowded street or a deserted square
I´ll turn and I´ll see you
As if our love were new
Someday we can start again someday soon
I still believe
I still put faith in us
Against All Odds
Phil Collins
How can I just let you walk away
Just let you leave without a trace
When I stand here taking every breath with you
You´re the only one who really knew me at all
How can you just walk away from me
When all I can do is watch you leave
´Cause we shared the laughter and the pain
And even shared the tears
You´re the only one who really knew me at all
So take a look at me now
There´s just an empty space
There´s nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face
Take a good look at me now
There´s just an empty space
And you coming back to me
Is against all the odds
And that´s what I got to take
I wish I could just make you turn around
Turn around and see me cry
There´s so much I need to say to you
So many reasons why
You´re the only one
Who really knew me at all
So take a look at me now
There´s just an empty space
There´s nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face
Take a good look at me now
There´s just an empty space
But to wait for you is all I can do
And that´s what I´ve got to face
Take a good look at me now
´Cause I´ll still be standing there
And you coming back to me
Is against all the odds
And that´s what I got to take
